S5E8: Another Chisme Therapy

Need therapy but can't afford it? Here are some tips. Becuase everyone should try out therapy. 

Transcript

Catch Up and Chit Chat

Speaker 1 0:12

welcome back you bitches . What's up ? That's where we're starting now what's up , biatches ? Biatches , not for us , oh yeah , no hey guys , welcome back .

Speaker 2 0:31

Oh yeah , I don't know , are we okay ?

Speaker 1 0:38

hey guys , welcome back . It's you go , karina and malini .

Speaker 2 0:42

What's up y'all ?

Speaker 1 0:43

how's it going ? How's your day ?

Speaker 2 0:44

yeah , tell us all about it as we go ahead and start sparking up , okay that's enough , okay , so my day how's your day ?

Speaker 1 0:55

that's pretty interesting . I went in at 12 and I had therapy at nine , which was great . I learned a couple of things about myself . I learned that when something is making me upset is because it's weird . I don't know how to explain it , but it's like I didn't realize that it was bothering me . You know what I'm saying . You know it's just like huh , like it will make me feel like it will make me feel judged , but I didn't know that . I didn't like it . I don't know .

Speaker 2 1:37

It's complicated it's good that you're learning , though , yeah , that's the important part is the understanding process yeah , but how was your day ? My day was pretty good . I was just I work . I went to my mom's I might be getting furniture , so that's interesting oh nice yes dining room table . Oh nice , yes . Look who's getting big furniture For real we're upgrading from eating on the couch to eating on a table .

Speaker 1 2:11

Okay , bitch , I see you . Hey , I love that , though it reminds me of when I first started .

Speaker 2 2:17

Yeah , it's okay , I'm going through Facebook market .

Speaker 1 2:20

I love that . I love that . I wonder if I have anything that I can give you . I don't know I have a whole lot of storage of things that I Do . You have a lot , ooh , you don't like to cook and bake , do you ?

Speaker 2 2:34

I like to cook , I don't . I'm not good at baking .

Speaker 1 2:37

Okay , there's a lot of things that Jonathan has bought me news when it comes to kitchenware .

Speaker 2 2:43

Yeah .

Speaker 1 2:43

Jonathan has bought me needles . When it comes to kitchenware , I can go through some of the stuff that I have duplicate . I can give them to you , dude , I'll take pots and pans yeah , okay , I'm gonna do that now , yeah for sure .

Speaker 2 2:51

Thanks , dude yeah , yeah , you know like oh yeah , shit , that's the table he pulled it up . Shit , what that mesa ? That was nice . Oh , that's the table he pulled it up . What La mesa ?

Speaker 1 3:07

That was nice . Oh , that's , oh , it's going to be glass . Yeah , that is nice Because my Like .

Speaker 2 3:13

I have those mesitas in the living room that are glass , that they're just like side tables .

Speaker 1 3:18

Oh yeah , they're tables , so I'm like it fits the theme . Yeah , I love glass Mm-hmm .

Speaker 2 3:24

Yeah , you just got to keep it clean . That's the worst part .

Speaker 1 3:27

Mm-hmm , it's actually hard To keep clean . To keep it clean , mm-hmm , mm-hmm .

Speaker 2 3:35

You know , my mom taught me a trick If you spray vinegar con agua y limon on glass , it won't go and keep it more like , it won't go ahead and stain as much compared to like regular cleaners .

Speaker 1 3:49

Hmm , because you know , I've had that glass table for literally like years , Like back when my mom was still here . My mom , you know , she left to Mexico six years ago .

Speaker 2 4:00

Yeah .

Speaker 1 4:00

So we've had them for what like eight , nine years , so I feel like they're pretty good .

Speaker 2 4:09

Yeah .

Speaker 1 4:11

But I try to keep them clean . But here my little eyes , sticky fingers . This makes it hard Me too with the tits .

Speaker 2 4:20

I'm going to be touching shit .

Speaker 1 4:24

He's just a messy eater . I can't talk because I get my shirt dirty every single fucking time , but I just get my shirt dirty , you know . I keep all the food in my plate , from my plate to my mouth , I guess because I'm a fat ass , right , yeah ? But like yeah , like straight this motherfucker be feeding his toes , his belly button , his chin hair , fucking his ass .

Speaker 2 4:52

The guinea pigs the floor and it's just like damn , like he's just trying to spread it all around .

Speaker 1 4:57

Oh , for real , that just means you're cooking so good .

Speaker 2 5:00

He's trying to spread it .

Speaker 1 5:01

No Girl , do not try to fucking defend him .

Speaker 2 5:04

Hell , he in bed . He was like hey , I got a little bit of sauce on my elbow . Hell , no bitch .

Speaker 1 5:12

I hate when he eats in the bed .

Speaker 2 5:15

Oh , I can't say shit I be eating in there .

Speaker 1 5:18

Yeah , you're right here and I tell you your face . I hate when he eats in the bed . I hate when you eat in the bed .

Speaker 2 5:25

See , I can't say shit because I hate it too whenever I find crumbs .

Speaker 1 5:28

Yeah .

Speaker 2 5:29

And it's so fucking annoying , I'm like bitch , fuck you . And then I'm like , well , quien mas lo hizo , pero yo . So I'm like fuck me bro . I was like 12 at night half asleep .

Speaker 1 5:45

Dude , I did that to him one time and he hasn't really done it ever since . Like he had eight , and I was like make sure you clean the thing . And like he did it , luego luego que me metí a la cama . I felt it and I was just like , okay , like , but I was really tired , so I was going to try to sleep through it . So I fucking woke his ass up and I was like I was pissed .

Speaker 1 6:03

I was like , clean this goddamn bed up right now Get up and he was like oh , and then I he cleaned the bed and I got back in the bed and I was like , don't do that again .

Speaker 2 6:16

Just have a sleep , good night . And I went , turned around , basically Turn yeah , but I went back to sleep Like god damn it .

Speaker 1 6:24

Yeah , I just can't , I can't . I also that's one of the reasons why I can't walk around barefooted , because I can't do stuff on my feet , like if the floor is not clean , like whenever Jonathan does Krusty Dusty to sweep him up , because Krusty Dusty sweeps him off for us and whenever he gets him going I walk on my barefoot and I enjoy it . I'm like hell yeah .

Speaker 2 6:52

A little vacuum cleaner . Yeah , a name named Krusty Dusty . I've heard that those things are really good .

Household Gadgets and New Pets

Speaker 1 6:57

They are . They're amazing . I love it . It sweeps all over the floor and in our room and then it mops and it has different type of sections that you can do like a little bit , or you can do like a lot , like how powerful you want it to be . But does it work with a carpet or not ? Yeah , my room . Really yeah it does and it's pretty cool because it maps your house so like you can literally like control it on your phone . Okay , not me promoting them .

Speaker 2 7:26

For real , but no , it is pretty . Sponsors .

Speaker 1 7:28

Okay , for real , I'm not going to say the name until they at us . No .

Speaker 2 7:32

For real .

Speaker 1 7:33

No , I'm just playing , but no , it's pretty dope , it's . You can control it on your phone , so like you can just turn it on from your house no mames and like you can set it to . Like you can set it to when you're leaving so you can start it , and then you leave and it'll start doing it and then , for whatever reason it gets stuck somewhere , it sends you a notification , like if it's like halfway , it'll charge itself and then it'll charge itself and then it'll restart where it left off . So it's pretty fucking dope , yeah . And then the one that we have empties itself . Actually , because there's some that you have to empty it out whenever you're like , whenever it's done , it's cycle , but mine has its own trash can , so when it's done like it empties itself out , and when they were that bag's full , then we just switch the bag out and it notifies you .

Speaker 2 8:25

Mm-hmm También . It's pretty fucking dope yeah .

Speaker 1 8:28

And if something's wrong with it , like it tells you Like I'm off trail or I'm stuck , or I'm flipped or I can't see Because it's a little sensor , and she said if he goes underneath somewhere and it blocks the sensor , like it'll let you know like , hey , I'm stuck , I can't see where I'm at .

Speaker 2 8:46

You just have to come out and get it .

Speaker 1 8:48

Yeah , and then you just whatever it is , and you just push like pretty much like power again and let it go on by this day , mm-hmm .

Speaker 2 8:57

Damn .

Speaker 1 8:58

Yeah , what did you get ? It was a birthday gift for Jonathanathan . Actually , I mean a christmas gift . Sorry , that's what jonathan wanted for christmas . It was a damn thing of that dang .

Speaker 2 9:12

So it was three something that's not bad , though , for it to change itself and everything .

Speaker 1 9:15

No damn , I can't remember . Yeah , so I can't . Was it three ? Well , you know , you know how much it was , because you told me what you wanted . Right , something like that . Like these are like 350 , that's not bad . Yeah , oh shit . Oh , that was crazy , yeah oh my miss .

Speaker 2 9:38

It like cleans your whole floor yeah , it's pretty fucking dope .

Speaker 1 9:41

Yeah , investment , investment , it is pretty cool . It is pretty cool , it's um . I enjoy it . It makes me my , it makes our life easier well , yeah , cause you don't ?

Speaker 2 9:55

have to worry about sleeping mhm cause yeah , there are days where I have to like come home and there's cat litter everywhere , there's bed litter everywhere .

Speaker 1 10:03

Yeah , these motherfuckers right here been throwing their caca all over the floor and I'm like god damn their food , their hay , and I'm like you bitches for real , like y'all having a party okay , I'm telling y'all get out and clean you dirty whores I'm talking about my guinea pigs , by the way yeah , for real I don't know what she has . Jonathan just got him a new water bottle .

Speaker 2 10:28

Ooh , how fancy . I know I also just grabbed one of the gallon automatic for the cats .

Speaker 1 10:37

I don't know if we told our peeps , oh , I adopted kitties , yeah , so my mother-in-law found three little kitties Kittens , right , mm-hmm , kittens , yeah , yeah . And one day my nanny had come over , or , yeah , right , yeah . And we were just talking about like cats and she was telling me about like this you know her cat story , her cat story .

Speaker 2 11:04

Yeah .

Speaker 1 11:08

Her cat trauma , my previous cat , yeah , and dad . Just I was just like and she knows she had mentioned about you were thinking about probably getting a cat or something on your own , and I was like , oh shit , well , I mean , I got like three for free for real and I was like , well , let me go look at one , yeah , because I told her I'm like she has three , if you want one , yeah , and that was like the main idea .

Speaker 2 11:28

And then when I got there , they were just like . They were just so cute and all Like they wanted to be together and I felt bad .

Speaker 1 11:36

I was like you know what ?

Speaker 2 11:37

let me foster two of these and keep one , and then days went by .

Speaker 1 11:43

You were supposed to give one to someone else .

Speaker 2 11:46

Yes , I remember you telling me that they asked me about it and I was like I don't know bro , like I think he ran away .

Speaker 1 11:54

I had no idea that she did it , not that I didn't watch them .

Speaker 2 11:57

Listen to our podcast for real they be like ah , she still has it . Next family party I'll be like one of my cats is missing for real , but yeah , but yeah . So I ended up keeping all three of them . Two of them are orange , one of them is brownish . Their names are MJ , milo and Andrea .

Speaker 1 12:24

Andrea , such a strong name . Yeah , I love that .

Speaker 2 12:27

Homie picked it Nice .

Speaker 1 12:32

Oh no , you have your own letter . Everybody has their own . Okay , Okay , so so I guess I feel like it's just . I'm just ready to dive into the conversation , yeah let's dive into today's episode . Yeah , so go ahead and hurry up and grab whatever your drug poison .

Speaker 2 12:57

You better turn up the maruchan and high , because we about to start .

Speaker 1 13:02

Okay , because it's about to get spicy , yes , and a little to get spicy , yes , and a little acid going in , one no .

Speaker 2 13:08

Don't forget .

Speaker 1 13:10

And we're going to call you bitches out for being bitches . No .

Speaker 2 13:16

Fuck you no just kidding , con cariño , con cariño .

Speaker 1 13:19

Yeah , yeah , yeah . Some of y'all , though Some of y'all can get these hands . You know who you are . You at me next time , bitch Nashway .

Speaker 2 13:26

On site . On site , you know who you is . You know who you is .

Speaker 1 13:36

Hell , no . Anyways , no violence , guys . Violence is not the answer .

Speaker 2 13:43

Yeah , no , yeah , no , no , fuck that . Violence is not the answer .

Speaker 1 13:44

Yeah , no , yeah , no , no . Fuck that . Violence is always the answer . Fuck what anybody says okay , I go to therapy , but fuck that .

Speaker 2 13:53

She said it was okay , for real .

Speaker 1 13:55

The purge is out once a year , homies . My therapist said whoop , that hoe .

Speaker 2 14:00

No she didn't . For real . They're going to be like , hey , who ?

Speaker 1 14:03

your therapist again For

Safe Space in Therapy

Speaker 1 14:05

real . Hey , no , my therapist is great , though , like , honestly , like she was like my third one that I had to like , look for .

Speaker 2 14:13

Yeah .

Speaker 1 14:13

Because I just wasn't fucking with them . And don't even get me wrong , the first day , the first day , I was like you know what bitch I'm good . Actually that's how I felt . But then I looked at Jonathan because he walked with me and I was like I don't know , something in me was like just give it a try .

Speaker 1 14:37

So I was like he was like something to me was like , just give it a try , yeah . So I was like he was like , are you gonna stay ? And I was like yeah , so I went in there and it was crazy .

Speaker 2 14:46

Wait , so you like went to meet her the first time , like in person . Mm-hmm , crazy . I don't know how that works .

Speaker 1 14:54

It was a lot of different ways . Know how that works . It was a lot of different ways . We do video chat now , um , but we did in person . For the first couple of months , I think . For like first two months or so , we did it in person and now we do video chat . But it's like either way , like you can do it in any way in form that you want . Honestly , you can do it in person , you can do video chat , you can do phone call yeah yeah , so it's like it's available in so many different ways now but I feel like

Speaker 2 15:18

I couldn't do it in phone call , because I would like completely forget that they're there and just like start scrolling on tiktok they'll be asking me questions and I'll be like huh , like , what are you even doing ?

Speaker 1 15:27

I'm like , I'm watching this historia no , yeah , like um , the people that need to know know my schedule , like when I have it , so they know that they don't contact me . I put on my phone and not disturb for that whole hour and the only one that can go through is Jonathan . So Jonathan's like he already knows , so he's not to call me . This is an emergency yeah other than that I do put my phone away , because I will end up being on my phone like 100% . Yeah , it's crazy .

Speaker 2 15:57

Por eso te digo if it's phone call , they ain't seeing me . So yeah . They'll be like bitch . Are you on your phone , Mm-hmm , how you know .

Speaker 1 16:07

You know , I actually do like seeing her in person , like going to a different place , really did help me personally . So I did tell her , like whenever she told me that she was just gonna , she was gonna stop doing in person and just go like work from home . Now that's what it was gonna be , just video chat . I don't know how to feel about that , because it's like you're changing my scenario . Yeah , so it's just like . I don't know , this is my safe place . You're making me choose a safe place , you know , and it's just like . So I I was having mentally a hard time trying to wrap my around my head that my house was going to be my safe place . Not that I don't feel safe in my house , but it's like these walls were about to hear some secrets that nobody's heard before you know . So it's just like you're changing those walls on me and I have to not have to tell a separate pair of walls .

Speaker 1 17:01

Now you know , so it was just like that's how I was thinking about it . It wasn't . It wasn't like I don't feel safe in my house . It was just like it's very hard for me to be portable , so to have to be soft in this house it's like it just scares me a little bit yeah , but this hasn't been hard , actually , like I think it's all my mentality , uh .

Speaker 1 17:26

But now that I'm like being medicated , like when it comes to doing stuff to better health , my anything like mental , physically , emotionally , like I just do it because I want to be better yeah so it's like I know that I have to do the work . Look at me being gay , talking about feelings . I know . Yeah , so I tried it out and so far I've been okay . Did a chatting with her , that's what's up . Yeah , so it's been cool .

Speaker 2 18:04

I like it .

Speaker 1 18:05

I have a spot , a specific spot , where I've been chatting her and I have my coffee , and then I have the sunlight coming in . So it's , it feels good , it feels coming in . So it's , it feels good , it feels really nice , yeah .

Speaker 2 18:21

Yeah .

Speaker 1 18:21

Yeah .

Speaker 2 18:22

But that's good too , because , like she gave you a chance to create your own safe space yeah , in your own home .

Speaker 1 18:29

Yeah , it's pretty cool because I do it whenever . Literally by the time my therapy starts , jonathan has to be walking out the door , so it's like I'm literally by myself yeah yeah that's good though it's really nice .

Speaker 1 18:43

I enjoy it . I highly recommend it to people that feel like they don't know how they don't have anybody to talk to , or they don't know how to talk to somebody . Like like I know we say this because by we , I'm also part of that Like how do you expect me to talk to a stranger when I can't even talk to the people I know , the people that I trust , the people that I will let decide who can pull my plug ? When it comes to the call you know ? But it's like it's just different because they literally don't know nothing about you . Like you are starting with a clean slave . Like this person knows nothing . You can literally tell this person what you want to tell them about yourself , but the whole point is for you to work on yourself . You have to talk about those harsh stuff . This is like the best person to be ugly crying with because they don't know you .

Speaker 2 19:56

They don't know you and they don't know you . They don't know you and they don't know the people that you are associated with , so they can't be like opinionated on like you know what . No , this is the reason why you should listen to them , because you know , you've been friends with them for so many years and la-di-la-di-da and talk about feelings whenever they're giving you facts . They're giving you facts , they're giving you more of like the honest truth , because family and friends won't .

Speaker 1 20:24

They won't give you that because they care about you . Therapy is about healing yes , yeah it's .

Speaker 2 20:30

This is the one person that's not gonna judge you yeah , yeah , and they can't because they have nothing to go based off of and then all I'm saying is go to therapists that have gone to therapy themselves , because I've noticed that that was my issue .

Speaker 1 20:51

Well , that was my issue . That helped me . The two other people that I tried to . They've never gone to therapy . My therapist now has , and the therapist that she trained , she told all of them to go to therapy and I feel like that makes sense . How are you going to teach me how to bake if you don't know how to bake ? How are you going to tell me how to work on my mental health but you don't know how to work on your mental health ? You don't know , even know what your mental health is , but you're gonna sit here and tell me what mine is . That's funny .

Speaker 1 21:28

It's like the blind laying the blind but like that's their , that's their whole purpose , though , is to know exactly it's like you can you can only know how much in books though I feel like this is a , this is a career or like a path line that you emotionally also have to understand it so you can tell the difference between emotionally reacting and mentally reacting , because the way that we react is either emotionally or mentally , and one of them is right and one of them is wrong .

Speaker 1 22:01

I was always reacting emotionally , not mentally , like I knew that I shouldn't have flipped the table , but emotionally told me to flip it , so I flipped it . So it's like how are they going to know what , emotionally , you're wrong if they never even process their own emotions ? At least that's not how my therapist explained it , that's how I understood it . I might be wrong , but like I just feel like it makes sense regardless , though , like you can only learn so much I feel like that's in any career though you can only do so much in books and videos until you actually are out there and you get your hands dirty . Then you really don't know what you're dealing with .

Speaker 2 22:44

But you're saying entonces , if you feel like your therapist understands those feelings because they understand them themselves about themselves , then it's okay .

Speaker 1 22:55

No , I don't .

Speaker 2 22:57

That just confused me Because like no , because , like to me this is interesting how you're putting it because , like I , haven't Okay , so I did go to therapy , like once when I was like 13 .

Speaker 1 23:09

Yeah .

Speaker 2 23:10

Like for I want to say like two months . But I but like I kind of like like just got her off my back for her to be like oh no , she don't need therapy , she's fine yeah like kind of shit , like because I'm , I just didn't want to go like I was , like you know what like . I feel like I understand my emotions enough and I can process them well .

Speaker 1 23:32

I just I chose not to yeah , kind of yeah , and you know , I also had an experience like that myself . The first time I had therapy was in sixth grade . So whatever age you are in sixth grade .

Speaker 2 23:49

One por doce trece .

Speaker 1 23:50

Yeah , so that's how old I was . The school gave um , I was going through some shit . I got , I got caught with some shit in my backpack and went whatever , and my mom was like that was her first like .

Speaker 2 24:05

Oh my God , you rebel . You were in sixth grade , yes .

Speaker 1 24:09

I started smoking when I was 14 .

Speaker 2 24:12

Yeah , Like weed or cigarettes .

Speaker 1 24:20

Uh yeah , like weed or cigarettes , weed Cigarettes . I didn't really start smoking cigarettes until I was like in my teenage years . Well , I was already in my teenage years , but like , more like towards like high school-ish , you want to start smoking cigarettes .

Speaker 2 24:30

Usually reverse , but okay .

Speaker 1 24:32

Yeah , Well , I was always . The only person that I was ever surrounded with cigarettes was my mom .

Speaker 2 24:38

Yeah Well .

Speaker 1 24:39

I was always . The only person that I was ever surrounded with cigarettes was my mom .

Speaker 2 24:43

But I was always surrounded by weed , by like family members and friends .

Speaker 1 24:46

Maybe because I grew up with güeros yeah , I grew up in the hood baby , I don't know Because like , yeah , it was the same story .

Speaker 2 24:50

Like , oh , we started smoking cigarettes first and then it was weed .

Speaker 1 24:57

I guess because I guess because I like smelling the cigarette on certain like the thing is like my mom never let me go to school smelling like cigarette . Like she never smoked in the house , she never smoked in the car , like my mom always smoked outside and away from me .

Speaker 2 25:11

So shout out to that . Yeah , that's nice .

Speaker 1 25:13

But I went to school with people that parents they smoke , smoking the car , that they're smoking the house . I had friends that I would go to their house and their house would smell like a whole ashtray . Like have you ever been to the casino ? Yes , I have gone to people's houses and they smell straight up like that .

Speaker 2 25:31

No , dude , because , okay , we were at Vegas , like not too long ago , Pinche casinos , they smelled so bad , it's crazy .

Speaker 1 25:40

You opened the door and it was like boom , it's like the whole time you're there , you're breathing cigarettes . Yes , you're breathing cigarettes .

Speaker 2 25:48

You're exhaling cigarettes , yeah .

Speaker 1 25:53

If that was a fucking weed joint bitch , you wouldn't even make it out , you would be slum and pass out somewhere in the corner .

Speaker 2 26:02

For real , you wouldn't even make it to your room . For real , everybody stays in the fucking lobby . Everybody just starts smoking in the fucking lobby .

Speaker 1 26:11

Moms , no , mommas , they just start blowing it in your face .

Speaker 2 26:14

For real at that point . You're dead on the ground . Just start blowing it in your face . For real at that point .

Speaker 1 26:17

You're dead on the ground . Are you here ? Are you here ? Just lay down on the floor . Just a little bubbles from the bong , Just fucking kumbaya , or ?

Speaker 2 26:26

some fucking .

Speaker 1 26:27

Harley , shit , hell , no , hell , yeah , damn . Now I want to do that For real . I'm gonna close all my AC vents hotbox the house hell yeah , jonathan , pack your shit , cause we about to hotbox the house , and don't forget your kids for real , they gonna come back .

Speaker 2 26:52

Oh , bug died , hell yeah . They really gonna have their spy gadgets out . I don't see hell . No , died , hell yeah . They really gonna have their spy gadgets out Ahora . Si and the little gun noise , what was I gonna say ?

Speaker 1 27:07

Oh , yeah , so that sixth grade , right yeah , the therapist thing , she was this white lady . She , oh , yeah so , dad , sixth grade , right yeah , the therapist thing , she was this white lady . She was an older white lady , okay , older white lady with this Mexican-ass mom . I get it , I get it . My mom , like my mom , did the best that she could . Colón que sabía . You know , she found like drugs on me and then she went to the school and like asked for , like you know , kind of like help because it's something that I wouldn't do . Like she was like I don't know , she's like , you know , with the wrong people . So then they put me to the side and tried to give me the snitch and they didn't . So they started making me go to this therapy , and so I I got to . I lost one of my classes because therapy was a period for me what the fuck they gave you therapy in school yeah and I

Therapy Reflections and Self-Improvement

Speaker 1 28:08

was .

Speaker 2 28:08

I never talked . Was it your counselor or was it an actual talked ?

Speaker 1 28:11

and um , I don't even remember much yeah , from then actually , but like no , like I've from all the different therapists that I've all the different therapists that I've experienced , the right one , you'll know . Like the right one . Like it just I don't know . Like it just it's she's .

Speaker 1 28:49

She's one of the people that I've been able to talk about certain things without getting emotional , and for me that's really good , because sometimes I don't need to cry , I just need to say them out loud yeah you know , and it's like with with her , it's like I have the strength to say these things out loud that I'm very scared to say by myself , like that I tried to say in front of jonathan , but I can't because I get too worked up and it's like mocos everywhere and it's just crazy , you know , I can't even breathe and he keeps giving me all this tissue and it's just like and sometimes I just need to hear myself say it- yeah . I had a fucked up life .

Speaker 2 29:31

Pero por eso like that's where , like how we were talking about earlier , the separation comes in and , like how , you're saying like which on the thing , you can't say it because you have too much feelings , because there's a connection there , there's a there's a line that connects you both , compared to like a complete stranger , there's nothing .

Speaker 1 29:54

Yeah , so it's easier yeah , but I feel like she should understand me emotionally in her point of view . If she's gone through that to a certain extent , because she knows what the trauma was , she knows that the way that my mom raised me wasn't okay . Just because we're mexican , because she's mexican , because her mom did the same thing . So I think that's just like a bonus . You don't have to go to the same race therapist or the same gender therapist , because there's a lot of different of us that grew up in the same culture .

Speaker 2 30:33

Yeah .

Speaker 1 30:33

Because we're mixed , because we got adopted , because we chose our own families , type of shit , you know like . So it's forget about the race and forget about all of that , because every race has their own traditions on how we raise our kids and each one of them has their own fucked up ways .

Speaker 2 30:53

you know , and I feel like it gives you different points of views also being able to go to , like having the opportunity actually to be able to communicate with people , um , just all around you don't like really know who you're talking to at first I don't know , I don't know if I'm gonna get some backlash on that , but I feel like you , I feel like a therapist should go to therapy .

Speaker 1 31:21

If you don't want to go because you don't need it , okay , because I don't feel like everybody needs it , yeah , but I feel like everybody should at least try it yeah , I agree yeah , so you can really see what it is to be the patient , to see , to be on the other side of that notebook , because in the beginning , whenever I will sit down and she will start writing , it's like what the fuck are you writing ? What did she ?

Speaker 2 31:48

write .

Speaker 1 31:48

Well I wouldn't ask , but in my head what the fuck I was saying . Like you bitch , you talking shit right now .

Speaker 2 31:53

For real .

Speaker 1 31:55

Not for for reals , but then now it's just like now . I see her writing and like pero ya ni digo nada . Like nothing even comes up in my head , like it's just . I just keep talking .

Speaker 2 32:07

I don't know what she's writing .

Speaker 1 32:09

No , that's what I'm saying , like I got so used to it , though , because that's just me being in my head , like she's not talking shit , she's writing down important shit . Yeah , she's doing her job . She's not attacking me , she's not talking about how fat I am or my glasses , or you know what I'm saying Like she's not talking . You know , she's doing her job , she's writing down shit , because there's something wrong with you in the head , bitch .

Speaker 1 32:36

You're thinking that this professional ass woman that doesn't know you is here talking shit about you Like well , come on , I'll be realistic . Yeah , this is why we're here bitch Calm down , so yeah . So eventually I just like it stopped bothering me , so like I'll look at her right and like literally nothing comes into mind . So yeah , like I don't worry about it anymore and I've noticed that that I started being out of my head a lot , which is fucking awesome .

Speaker 2 33:08

Yes , dude , oh yeah .

Speaker 1 33:09

Yeah , like I actually let myself enjoy things because I stay out of my fucking head . So shout out to my therapist man Round of applause for that woman . Yes .

Speaker 2 33:23

Yes , it's her so .

Speaker 1 33:30

I guess because , like this , this older white lady back then , you know , this is over a decade ago , so don't think about it in today's now and day , 13 years ago , type of shit . You know , a Mexican , una niña latina , with this older white lady . I wasn't going to talk to her Because one my mom always told me not to be talking to nobody .

Speaker 2 34:04

My mom hated when I talked to people in English because she didn't know what the fuck I was saying your mom yeah , your mom didn't ever catch on to English .

Speaker 1 34:09

She did , but like , eventually you know what I'm saying . I didn't learn English until I was in the fourth grade , so she didn't really start learning . So you know what I'm saying . I didn't learn English until I was in the fourth grade , so she didn't really start learning . So it was like me and her started learning English at the same time . You know what I'm saying . So it's like she knew it a little bit more because of her job , but she didn't really get to really truly understand it until we both had to learn it , type of thing .

Speaker 1 34:33

Yeah , so it was like she didn't make it easy on me , like she wasn't mean to me , but like she didn't make it easy on me . Like she definitely made me feel like I was a lot of work and she didn't get paid enough to deal with me , type of shit . Like she didn't make me feel like that . Did I make it hard ? Yeah , but what the fuck did you expect ? Deal with me ? Type of shit . Like she didn't make me feel like that .

Speaker 1 34:58

Did I make it hard ? Yeah , but what the fuck did you expect if you would have actually sat there and gave me the and just try to fight with me now , like with me for me type of shit , and then and I would have given you a little glimpse of what the fuck I've been going through , then I'm probably she would have saved me from a lot actually yeah if I would have had a big breakthrough with that therapist in sixth grade , I feel like I would have definitely had a way different path , like a hundred percent , because right after that shit just kind of got worse .

Speaker 1 35:31

Yeah , yeah , so like that's crazy , so it's like go to therapy . Yeah , if you're a therapist , just go to therapy one time . Try it out , because you can change somebody's life . I feel like if she would have been emotionally available for herself , she would have been emotionally available for me . She would have just sat there and gave me a hug and let me cry , because that's what my therapist lets me do .

Speaker 2 35:54

Yeah , crazy Mexicans go to therapy everybody stop right now .

Speaker 1 36:03

Go to google . No , but I think it's pretty cool . Not everybody needs therapy , though , you know , like shout out , I hope to one day not need it . Yeah , I love it . Shout out , I hope to one day not need it . Yeah .

Speaker 2 36:26

Like I love it but I hope to not always need it . I feel like for me , it's not that I don't need it . I feel , like it would be very beneficial if I actually went to therapy . Like it would help with like a lot of my issues , maybe get on medication that would help me stay on track and shit like that . But , it's more of like I feel like I'm doing okay with myself right now , that I'm just like mm .

Speaker 1 36:52

You know type of shit .

Speaker 2 36:56

And I don't know like , but I do agree , like , if , like , if you really like therapy is beneficial for you . Like , I'm not , not dissing on it .

Speaker 2 37:06

I'm like I agree like it is really good for you , but like I also feel like I understand like what they're gonna tell me , like they're gonna be like bitch , this is what you need to do . And I'm like , yeah , I know , I just don't do it . So it's going to for me . I feel like it's going to be a never ending loop of the like we'll just do it and I'm like , okay , and I'm just going to continue not to Like I just don't have that initiative myself to do it . So I'm just like pa' que voy .

Speaker 1 37:35

Type of shit , mm-hmm , mm-hmm . So I'm going to hit you with a question that my therapist hit me with .

Speaker 2 37:40

Ah man .

Speaker 1 37:41

I'm like I done it . Are you a psychic Like ? Are you able to tell the future ?

Speaker 2 37:46

No .

Speaker 1 37:46

So how do you know what they're going to tell you ? Oh man , bitch , like who do you think you are For real ? That's why I'm like , bitch , no , but like , let me leave .

Speaker 2 38:01

I want my money back , even though it's free For real .

Speaker 1 38:02

I'm like you know what Take your question back , give my insurance Back their money , shout out to my insurance . That lets me have this , you know , and I feel like therapy should be free , because without fucking therapy I mean without fucking therapy without fucking insurance I wouldn't have been going to it .

Speaker 2 38:19

It's fucking expensive .

Speaker 1 38:20

No , yeah , it is . So it's like this is something that should definitely be free . I feel like this is why there's so many , so many things . So many of us have a lot of things wrong with us Because we can't fucking afford the help that we need and that thing . That's pretty fucked up . Stop fucking building all this stupid ass shit that we don't need and give us the things that we do need . The hell anyways .

Navigating Anxiety and Panic Attacks

Speaker 2 38:45

that's for a different subject , but damn , I forgot therapist oh , yeah , therapy , yeah to therapy I don't know I forgot where we were going , but that was a bitch , I was like going to therapy now . I was like damn , I probably should , huh no , yeah , yeah , if I can't tell the future , then yeah , how am I supposed to know ?

Speaker 1 39:12

yeah , I know , like you know what's crazy , though , that shit stuck with me , bitch , because whenever , every time I like I have to do something and I start freaking out , and it's just like bitch , como sabes how ? Pause , bro . Like every like , honestly , like that's why that , that's the type of shit that has helped me , like the one thing that she also gave me a tip for me for when , like , I get really angry , when I , when I will feel like I have to flip a table , she would be like pause and really think about it . Are you really mad because a fly landed on your food or because something happened long ago and you're just using this excuse to explode ? So now , every time I feel like I gotta explode , I really I'm like , okay , I take a break , like , why am I mad ? Why am I mad ? And then eventually it's just like why am I mad ?

Speaker 1 40:08

yes yeah , and like I also haven't taken my anxiety pills like over a month , damn . Because the trick that she gave me is like I guess she realized that I like to be very like nature , bonded . I like to be calm and relaxed and listen to like waterfall and rain , forward noises and crickets and you know , just mellow . She's like focused sometimes , sometimes focus on where you at . So when I start feeling very angry or I start feeling very like anxious , like I feel like it's so weird , I feel like I gotta rip my clothes , like my skin off . I it's like , I feel like I can't breathe , I feel like I have to disappear , like it's so weird . And she's taught me to start feeling that . So I start feeling it before it actually hits me too hard . So then I'm like okay , okay .

Speaker 1 41:05

I'm like what am I thinking of ? Because our head wanders , like you can just sit there , be focusing on work , and when you start feeling anxious , it's because you're still thinking of something . So you got to focus on what you're thinking . But instead of me focusing what I'm thinking , I focus on around me . So it's just like okay . If I were to be having one right now , I would be like , okay , so I'm in the podcast Eleni's here , ray's there , jonathan's there and I just start naming shit around me . And then I come back to here and I forgot what the fuck I was even tripping about . And then I'm back and everything's okay . So it's like I don't need to take my pill , because that's what my pill does my pill brings me back , it relaxes me , it calms me down . But how do you do it like ?

Speaker 2 41:58

that literally like that , just by naming things , that's like I just stay in my like . I literally just say it in my head because , I'm not gonna lie , I've had that feeling too , and I thought I was just tripping . Now that you're saying that , I'm like , oh bitch , I was just having a fucking anxiety attack . Yeah , yeah it will .

Speaker 1 42:16

Um , it could also be a panic attack , which that's because I , the medication that I take for my depression , has a little bit for my anxiety . So the the separate one is for panic attacks . So the second one is the one that I have been having , because it's the ones that make me feel like I gotta rip my skin off or I got to rip my hair out .

Speaker 2 42:37

Yeah .

Speaker 1 42:39

Like I feel like I got to get out of my skin so I can breathe . Like it's weird , I feel like I have to remove myself . Like I got to get out of here , I got to get out of the car , I got to get out of wherever I'm at . Like I feel like I'm under attack .

Speaker 2 42:56

But nobody's around me , like it's yeah , look , dude , I'm gonna tell you , because you're explaining this and I'm like dude , I had that exact same thing and I couldn't fucking figure it out so it was actually like . I want to say like maybe two months ago we were watching a movie at one of our friends house we're watching a scary movie and then the movie . I was chilling . I've already seen the movie before and everything . It was his first time watching it . We were high , we were just chilling .

Speaker 1 43:17

Right .

Speaker 2 43:18

Yeah , like it was a whole vibe .

Apartment Woes and Therapy Goals

Speaker 2 43:20

And then like towards the end , like I was watching it and I was like focusing on watching the movie and like I felt like an itch on my back and I was like that's weird . So I started scratching and then like my skin started getting hot . I was like , damn , I'm trying to fucking watch the movie and like I'm feeling uncomfortable . So I'm like hey , I'm telling him , like hey , can you get off of me ? I'm like maybe , maybe .

Speaker 1 43:43

It's like that Maybe I'm getting too hot yeah .

Speaker 2 43:45

And like I'm watching it and like , like my skin feels like it's fucking on fire and I'm like , oh , what the fuck . And I'm like , bro , what the fuck . And I'm just like you know what I got to leave , like I got to go , but I don't want to move either , because I feel like , bro , you're going to look weird if you just get up and be like bro , I need to get out of here .

Speaker 1 44:01

Yes , it's hard . So you just like , you just got to fucking like thug it out . You're like okay , my skin is itching Like I'm like and I can't like , I can't breathe at that point .

Speaker 2 44:16

Like I'm just like I'm holding my breath , like I'm feeling my face get hot and I'm like , bro , everybody's staring at me that I'm like getting weird , that I'm like fidgeting now yeah .

Speaker 1 44:31

I'm like , oh , my God , they can noticed .

Speaker 2 44:33

I don't know if anybody noticed .

Speaker 1 44:35

No , I'm telling you . Yeah , maybe At the whole time nobody even noticed , because I've said it before and they were like damn really . And I was like , yeah , I just had a whole panic attack and they were like you were just sitting there and I was like , yeah , bitch , I wasn't moving , but I was stuck , I was stuck .

Speaker 2 44:56

yeah , bitch , I wasn't moving , but I was stuck . I was stuck on stupid bitch . It was like I was stuck on stupid mode . My controller disconnected yeah .

Speaker 1 45:02

I was like ah , what do I do right now ? Do I rip my skin off ?

Speaker 2 45:08

For real , no , but I felt like I was fidgeting so much . Like I don't know if I actually was , but I felt like I was , that I was just like you know what , like I got to get up .

Speaker 1 45:17

Sometimes I feel like you know how on TV , whenever things are staticky and they're like red and blue .

Speaker 2 45:23

Yeah .

Speaker 1 45:23

Sometimes I feel like that oh yourself yeah . I feel , like I'm like glitching .

Speaker 2 45:28

Yes , but like on the inside .

Speaker 1 45:36

I feel like my inside is shaking , like my skin is fine , but like my skeletons and my organs is like shaking . But you can't tell from the outside .

Speaker 2 45:44

Dang .

Speaker 1 45:45

Yeah , that's how I feel .

Speaker 2 45:46

I had a whole ass Shit . That's crazy .

Speaker 1 45:51

But that's trauma .

Speaker 2 45:53

But I don't know from what I was chilling .

Speaker 1 45:57

No , our mind wanders . Sometimes you're just chilling and you're watching something and your mind wanders . So whatever you were thinking of when your mind wandered is what triggered you .

Speaker 2 46:09

Dang . How do you get back to it though ?

Speaker 1 46:13

You gotta do the work .

Speaker 2 46:16

You gotta remember .

Speaker 1 46:18

But you can't remember . Because you shoved it . It's a mechanism that humans have . We shove it so deep to never remember that when we try to remember , we can't .

Speaker 2 46:31

See , this is why I low-key , want to go , this is why I should just go to therapy , but I'm like , this is why I , low-key , want to go , this is why I should just go to therapy , but I'm like this is why I want to study psychology , so I can like I can understand that because I want to be a therapist , but I'm like I feel like I need to do like the schooling to understand my own feelings . No , yeah , but that's my thing , though . Like I feel like , once I understand the process of it , I'm just going to do it on my own and I'm like no , I do see you doing that , yeah , but I feel like it won't work because you have to actually do the work .

Speaker 1 47:11

So do the work is . You have to be on the other side of that notepad , so I should go to therapy first before . Interesting , interesting , I like that so whenever you go to learning , you're going to understand what you're learning because you already walked that path so it's kind of like making it easier for me because you're going to have an emotional , emotional , mentally connection to it already . Yeah , it's like . It's like you're studying , but you're , you're the test .

Speaker 2 47:51

I don't like that . That's scary .

Speaker 1 47:52

No you'll be fine , bitch . Nobody knows you more than you do . That's the scary part . Yeah , nobody knows you more than you do , that's the scary part yeah , nobody knows you more than you do yeah , because at the end of the day , I feel like we always know what to do , and that's what scares us , because we already know what to do , we just are scared to do it yeah , we're just like are you scared to break up with that bitch ?

Speaker 1 48:09

but you know you should break up with that bitch you know , you should have walked away alone . You know you need to quit that job . You know you need to drag that hoe . No , I'm just playing All that fucking 35 and back . No bitch .

Speaker 2 48:27

You know you need to fold that clothes in your corner . Oh bitch , I can't say shit . I have folded .

Speaker 1 48:34

I said it to myself I gotta , I gotta , fucking dryer full of clothes right now we're gonna pretend like that bitch is not there right now mine's all over my living room dude and then embarrassing moment .

Speaker 2 48:50

What maintenance went into my fucking house what happened ? Because I , okay , I told them about the fucking door , my front door it looks like it was like it's literally like a cholo yeah , loki , yeah , like someone tried to break into my house like it looks the sides like , the air keeps on going out . So I'm like , bro , y'all are running my ac no , and for real , and I'm like that's my electricity .

Speaker 2 49:15

You know what they fucking did ? They went into my fucking apartment and they added another AC unit Like uno en la ventana . And then they're like so for the AC to be fixed . Bitch , that's not what I said in my thing . I said fix the door . I'm like , fix it . So I'm like now I'm going to start setting up an extra unit that I have to pay for on electricity , because that bitch is on high , high fan to keep that house cold , so my AC won't be fucking running and the door is still not fixed . That was , that was the fucking rant I actually had for you earlier . And I'm like bitch , are you fucking kidding me ? When did this happen ? Today , today . That's why I was gonna tell you about it .

Speaker 1 50:03

Yes .

Speaker 2 50:04

Y no , mira y también , they left the fucking luz prendida . So I was like you motherfuckers are running by electricity . You fuckers , you think I'm made out of money , bro . So I was like you motherfuckers are running by electricity . You fuckers , you think I'm made out of money , bro . I'm sorry for all the big .

Speaker 1 50:25

That one got to me . I was just like Bro no fucking way .

Speaker 2 50:28

So now I'm going to have to make another report .

Speaker 1 50:31

And I'm like look , Look at here , you fucking bitches .

Speaker 2 50:34

Nah , thank you for the AC fan I'm going to take it with me that I didn't want . I'm like I'm going to take this hoe with me when I move out , but I need the door fixed , so we quit wasting my AC and take your stupid ass fan , because Miss Dutts is adding another extra hundred bucks Fuck y'all , we approve this message .

Speaker 1 51:05

Dude maintenance be tripping bro . Oh my God , living in an apartment fucking sucks man look Like Living in an apartment fucking sucks man . Look man , these bitches up here , these bitches up here .

Speaker 2 51:21

If you can't tell we're rolling our eyes . Yes , Fucking maintenance .

Speaker 1 51:25

Like they fucking suck . Like there's nobody that I haven't not wanted to fight in this fucking whatever that bullshit's called . What is that ? Like the leasing office ? The leasing office . There's no staff that I haven't wanted to fight in this fucking whatever that bullshit's called . What is that ? Like the leasing office ? The leasing office there's no staff that I haven't wanted to fight .

Speaker 2 51:40

Fuck your leasing office .

Speaker 1 51:42

If you know me , you know me . I have cameras all over my house . Okay , One time some guy came in my house like maintenance and I was like why the fuck are they in my house ? We didn't put anything . So I call and I'm like why the fuck is there somebody in my house ? Blah , blah , oh yeah , there's nobody's at your house . I said , okay , I hanged up , I gotta go take my break , drove my happy ass up here and I was like who just answered the phone ? I just called about some uh mania's being in my house . Oh , that was me . Okay , go ahead and sit your happy ass down . Let me show you something .

Speaker 1 52:17

I fucking pulled up my cameras and I was like so why was this mania guy in my house ? If I don't have an order , let me call him . Oh , he was in the wrong , wrong apartment . So what are we gonna do ? Yeah , like , that's like , what are we doing to fix that ? Because you're sitting here lying to me that nobody's at my house instead of checking . My alarm went off . That's how I even know that somebody went in my house . So it's just like so who's lying me ? Or your or my system that I pay for ? So it's just like . So who's lying me or my system that I pay for ?

Speaker 1 52:56

facts like cause . That's a pretty solid ass , ghost that's crazy , caught on camera , yeah .

Speaker 1 53:05

So it's like once you open the door , all over camera is kicking . So it's like you see him . He's just like he was in the house and then he went into the restroom . And he was in the house and then he went into the restroom and he was like I was fixing their showerhead , but there was nothing wrong with our showerhead Because we have our showerhead Like . We took their showerhead off and we put like our own type one that I wanted . So it's just like if anything's wrong with that fucking shower head , the motherfucker's gonna fix it .

Speaker 2 53:36

Lives in this bitch yeah not no maintenance guy and even then I didn't ask for you to go in there . So it's like why are you touching ?

Speaker 1 53:43

my shit , like exactly what the fuck did you fix that was broken , like what you turned it on and what was wrong with the motherfucking shower ? Yeah , what did he fix , bitch ? And then and then and before that , we will put an order in . And then the motherfucking man was never coming in . They were just putting in the order . They were saying that it was completed , so we will get the email that has been completed . So we caught that too . So then I was just like when are they coming in ? Because she's still fucked up . Oh well , they went in . Well , no , ma'am , because my system never went off . I'm like what time ? What time did they complete it so we can look at the cameras ? Yeah , cause , like no , how , who Y'all going through the AC vents ? Look at Chingao ? Y'all going through the car unit , like what's going on ?

Speaker 2 54:33

Y'all got secret doors . Okay , girls , y'all going through the car unit .

Speaker 1 54:35

Like , what's going on ? How do y'all ? Y'all got secret doors . Okay , let me know Shit , because what if I gotta ?

Speaker 2 54:38

escape from this motherfucker one day For real . Fire exits . Okay , show me all of them . Yes , we pay for that , exactly Like . Show me my secret , yeah , so then ?

Speaker 1 54:49

So then I was like I'm gonna need an update . And then the update was that those maintenance guys were doing that to everybody . They were just saying that they were completing a job , but they weren't doing shit . And I was like , okay , well , who the fuck is going to fix my shit ? Though ?

Speaker 2 55:02

Yeah , like you're answering what happened .

Speaker 1 55:06

That's still a you problem . Bitch Like oh my God , I fucking hate this place . Don't move here . I'm not going to tell you where , because I'm still here . I'll let y'all know after I move out .

Speaker 2 55:16

Yeah , For real . Once we don't live there , that's when we'll expose them . Yeah , because otherwise they're going to kick us out .

Speaker 1 55:23

And the people that know me . You better shut the hell up .

Speaker 2 55:27

For real . You don't know where I live .

Speaker 1 55:31

We're in Canada . This bitch didn't stay in Canada .

Speaker 2 55:34

Bitch , bitch how you think we got a green card yeah , cause I married me a black guy no mami you know this motherfucker .

Speaker 1 55:49

One time he said that he wasn't gonna give me papers and I said look at here , you dumb fuck , I don't need him . I was look at here , you dumb fuck .

Speaker 2 55:56

No .

Speaker 1 55:56

I'm just playing . I don't need them . I was like . I was born here . You stupid , what the hell Like ? Keep your papers . I don't need your goddamn papers .

Speaker 2 56:04

Shit , I got my own .

Speaker 1 56:07

Kabam , I actually do still have my original birth certificate . That shit crusty and dusty and cracky .

Speaker 2 56:12

I would hope so , bro , you need it .

Speaker 1 56:14

Well , no , Like I have the original one .

Speaker 2 56:16

Yeah , you're supposed to have it .

Speaker 1 56:18

Well , no , you can lose it or it can burn down and shit , and then you can just go get a copy of it .

House Fire and Random Banter

Speaker 2 56:30

You know what ? My house burned down and my mom still had it . Nice , it burned down when I was in middle school , literally a day before school . What happened ? It was like an electrical thing in la sala and it went , I guess , in la cortina , like with the drapes , it went ahead and caught on fire . And literally all of our house caught on fire , except for , like my mom's room .

Speaker 1 56:51

Oh shit , because it was towards the end , right .

Speaker 2 56:54

Yeah , that makes sense , sense , but like it got like the whole kitchen , my room , like the house and everything , damn did I ? Shit dude , damn .

Speaker 1 57:04

That's why that's why I'm gasping so hard , cause I was like damn the same thing . Texas dude , it's hot as fuck stop coming here , you whores . Hey , talking about ? Stop coming here . Shout out to our Germany people we see you . We see y'all . I'm going to learn a German word for y'all .

Speaker 2 57:28

How do you say it ?

Speaker 1 57:30

Off Wiedersen .

Speaker 2 57:32

Yeah .

Speaker 1 57:34

Scheisse Off Wiedersen . Yeah , shysa , shysa , shysa . Don't come for me if I'm saying it wrong and I'm sorry if I'm being disrespectful , because that was not my intention . Hashtag I come in peace , hold on .

Speaker 2 57:46

Dang .

Speaker 1 57:49

That is fucked up .

Speaker 2 57:50

Okay , sorry guys , I would have left , though Okay , don't be calling me that , you whore .

Speaker 1 58:00

If I would have heard that I'm like ah , got me Ex-puta , por favor , no .

Speaker 2 58:08

Be like you , whore , and be like ah you know me Retired . For real , be like ah retired .

Speaker 1 58:14

Oh um puta , Don't call me a puta . Retired for real , be like up retired . Oh um puta , john , don call me a puta .

Speaker 2 58:22

I was like that's not really what .

Speaker 1 58:23

I said , john Don , call me a puta . Like a success in machismo . Hell yeah , hell yeah , hell yeah . Deleting and adding shit . You bitches be messy as hell , damn . I don't know . I forgot what we were talking about .

Speaker 2 58:46

I thought we were going to talk about kinks .

Speaker 1 58:49

Kinks .

Speaker 2 58:50

Yeah , I don't know . I forgot what we were going to talk about today Because I said let's get into it . We had a therapy talk . I don't know .

Speaker 1 58:58

I forgot what we were going to talk about today , Because I said let's get into it . We had a therapy talk . That means that's what our listeners needed . They need another therapy sesh .

Speaker 2 59:06

I actually learned a lot about therapy today .

Speaker 1 59:09

If you're experiencing any of the things that I'm experiencing , try those tips and see .

Speaker 2 59:15

Yeah , they were very useful advice . Mm-hmm , mm-hmm , mm-hmm , mm-hmm . I definitely learned a lot today . I'm glad .

Speaker 1 59:26

Yes , I'm glad that I was able to teach y'all . It's nice . Yes , one thing that , before we wrap this up , that I did want to tell you , I guess , since you learned . One thing that I learned today is that I don't like being called mean , mean , mm-hmm . I realize that it bothers me when people call me mean , because it's like I'm not mean , I know mean .

Speaker 2 59:57

Yeah .

Speaker 1 59:58

And that's exactly who I'm not trying to be .

Speaker 2 1:00:01

Yeah .

Speaker 1 1:00:02

So it's like I'm not that . So I think I'm going to start when people call me that I'm going to start speaking up Because I don't like .

Speaker 2 1:00:12

Oh , you should .

Speaker 1 1:00:13

Because it's like I try really hard to be that person that I didn't have . So if you call me needing somewhere to stay in , a meal , needing a shower , needed a shoulder , to cry on a ride like if I got it , you got it , because whenever I needed it , nobody had it , yeah . So it's like I want to be that safety net that to people that I didn't have .

Speaker 1 1:00:41

So I'm not mean , because mean as well , let me in the street yeah and I'm not gonna leave you to the street that's good to speak up for yourself I just didn't know that I didn't like that . Like I just took it on my own day and I ran with it . I said , yes , I'm a mean bitch , whatever fuck you . But it's like I didn't really realize that I didn't like that Because , like , I can be mean , I can be a bitch , but that's not who I am . Right , like I can be silly , I can be silly , I can be funny . That's not permanently what I am , though .

Speaker 2 1:01:15

Exactly .

Speaker 1 1:01:16

The hell Like we can have moods .

Speaker 2 1:01:19

Yeah , I can have a mean mood .

Speaker 1 1:01:21

Yeah , fucking about mean mood . We need to go watch fucking Inside Out 2 .

Speaker 2 1:01:28

I already saw it . Bitch , don't tell me nothing I won't , I won't , it's really good though I know it is . It's really good , I know , Like really good , melaney , I have so many spoilers no , calla tu boca , we're going to wrap this shit up before I hit Melaney with this damn bong you want to know the secret .

Speaker 1 1:01:48

I'm hit it with the chancla . No , you're like , stop it's you're like stop , it's the show , the program that you were listening to right now . No , alright , guys , we're gonna go ahead and wrap it up . Hopefully you learned something . Hopefully you enjoyed it . Hopefully we were able to get you through your bottle of wine or your sack of weed or whatever you were doing .

Speaker 2 1:02:22

Yeah , hope you learned something . This was therapy for y'all , right , but you know what ?

Speaker 1 1:02:27

If you're listening to us and you're exercising or you're working or you're stuck in traffic hopefully we made it by go much easier . Yes , working , or you're stuck in traffic hopefully we made it by go much easier .

Speaker 1 1:02:40

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Speaker 2 1:03:12

Check it out , um go ahead and subscribe , go ahead and use that little notification shit yeah , oh yeah .

Speaker 1 1:03:20

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Speaker 1 1:03:47

We want to interact with y'all . Interact with us . It's I'm very excited here . Yeah , teach us , yes , teach us what y'all like , so for us to get better I'm like I'm never gonna get tired to talk about me , but give me more reason to talk about . Tell me about stuff .

Speaker 1 1:04:06

You know what I'm saying tell me what you want to know about me yeah , yeah , I'm an open book bitch , yeah , but until then , remember to wash your hands , cause bitches are still Getting pregnant From left to right . It's crazy out here , hooties are everywhere . Yes , it's crazy , it's crazy , okay . Well , bye , get out of here .